What They Dont Tell You Is That Choosing You Hurts

Sometimes you have to break your heart to save your soul

When I think back on younger me, I say 'where did I get such a strong desire to ignore my own wants and intuitions'. Why was I letting others dictate my actions, and sway my outcomes? It doesn't get easier, you get stronger.

On and off, we toggle between wanting to be accepted and wanted, from sources that don't serve us. For some it's temporary, for some, it's a battle.

For me, I grew to be very self-aware of my insecurities, people-pleasing. If you think that stopped me, you're in for a ride. I still dabbled between what I wanted to do, and what looked good for me to do. So many lessons lie in how you feel about yourself, see yourself, and respect yourself. What you do with the energy that comes naturally from your aura, what happens to us laced with the spirit of others.

There are countless lessons embedded in the way we perceive ourselves, the respect we afford our own identities, and the energy we project into the world around us. Our self-image profoundly influences our interactions and relationships, shaping how we allow others to affect our emotional and spiritual well-being. It is essential to recognize the impact of the energies we absorb from our surroundings, especially when mingled with the spirits and intentions of those around us. Understanding this dynamic can lead to a deeper comprehension of our essence and the importance of protecting it from external influences that may not align with our true selves.

When something isn't suitable for you, no matter how many reasons your mind provides for doing it, your body will feel tight and heavy when you consider it.

Conversely, when something is right for you, even if it's terrifying, your body will move toward it with a sense of expansion and lightness.

You can learn to distinguish the difference by recalling a past situation that was terrible. Close your eyes, scan your body, and observe the sensations. Then think of something you truly love and do the same. Notice the difference? Your body's reactions are significantly different.

I feel like I'm always reflecting on the choices I've made, particularly those moments when I should have prioritized my own well-being and happiness over the expectations or demands of others. It's as if I'm perpetually caught in a mental loop, replaying scenarios in my mind where I could have chosen differently, where I could have stood up for myself instead of acquiescing to external pressures. This internal dialogue often leads me to recognize that, deep inside, I find myself entangled in a metaphorical pickle—situations of my own making that I could have easily avoided had I been more attuned to my own needs and desires.

By the time I come to this realization, it often feels like it's too late to rectify the situation. I have already invested significant emotional energy and time into these uncomfortable circumstances, which only compounds the difficulty of extricating myself from them. The damage done is not merely superficial; it can affect my self-esteem, my relationships, and my overall sense of peace. Each instance of neglecting my own needs acts as a setback, effectively resetting the lessons I thought I had learned about self-care and personal boundaries.

 The journey toward self-acceptance and empowerment is ongoing, filled with challenges that test my resolve and commitment to myself. Each experience, albeit painful, contributes to my understanding of the importance of choosing myself, reinforcing the notion that personal growth is not linear but rather a winding path filled with both setbacks and breakthroughs.

Returning to your true self is not merely a journey; it is a transformative experience that opens the door to a profound sense of peace. This peace is not superficial; it penetrates deep within, creating a sanctuary where you can reconnect with your innermost thoughts and feelings. As you embark on this path of self-discovery, you will cultivate an awareness that is not only enlightening but also incredibly beautiful. This heightened awareness allows you to perceive the world around you with fresh eyes, appreciating the subtle intricacies of life that often go unnoticed. You will find joy in the simplest of moments, and the connection you establish with your authentic self will be so enriching that you will yearn to hold onto it forever.

In light of this profound realization, it becomes essential to prioritize yourself in every aspect of your life. This means recognizing your own needs, desires, and aspirations as valid and worthy of attention. By putting yourself at the forefront of your priorities, you create a solid foundation upon which you can build a magnificent life filled with purpose and fulfillment. It is a powerful reminder that self-care is not selfish; rather, it is a crucial element of a healthy and balanced existence. When you prioritize yourself, you open the floodgates to joy, creativity, and personal growth, allowing you to fully embrace the richness of life. So, take a moment to reflect on what truly matters to you, and make a conscious effort to nurture those aspects. Remember, you are deserving of all the beauty life has to offer.

When you choose yourself, everything around you will choose you